I endure this everywhere I go in this city. Woman that think they have the right to try to yelling and harass people into doing and living the lives they think is best for them.
I have been waiting for help, emailing out and no one wants to help me in this run down city of Toronto, the bottom of the barrel in Canada, and now my feelings for Canada waivers.
As I do live in NDP JACK LAYTON's riding so the homophobic HATE speech and Anti HIV HATE speech, ANTI Black and ANTI immigrant HATE speech must be his supporters.
I need find out who these woman are they go from saying they are Private Investigators to police Blah blah blah...I don't care they are slandering me and others in this City because we live breath try to be the best at everything we do. It makes them feel bad about themselves.
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I am living this hell in front of you all.
In a living hell, living it out,
In front of you all,
Mocked at every moment,
By you all,
God why have you done this to me?
Left trapped
inside these four walls,
To live out this hell,
In front of more than just you,
but, In front of them all,
Left in pain,
Left on my leather couch,
That is as cold as them all,
and their stare,
That portal into my most personal place,
My wounds,
My pain,
My living hell
Being lived out,
In front of you all.
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Some people say I connect or try to connect to many dots. People tell me things and then try to change what they say or deny it was ever said. Sometimes I think I am the only sane person in Toronto or even Canada. Below is a thought and some connected dots.
The first is called EVIL.
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Have you ever had your mind stretched to its limit of inward thinking,
Have you ever had to try to understand, what it is, is not?
Thinking that you are trapped inside your mind and lost to the world of insanity?
EVIL
What is EVIL?
Some if not all the people I knew a few years ago, will say nothing to me today.
I have had said to me "How could he not have known, we were REALLY there?"
Having to contemplate your own sanity? Have you actually had to sit and think you have lost your mind? and that all the voices around you are not real.
You ask your friends can you hear that, and after you he no, I don't hear anything, I don't hear anything over and over and over again. The mist no be real.
If everyone you know doesn't hear anything and only you do, then they must be VOICES IN YOUR MIND.
That's INSANE, you have become insane.
No, it was just a joke. The voices were people you had known, they just wanted to play a joke.
They were not voices of people I knew, they just knew how I was and my friends.
After I sat and listened to the chatter, and looked deep into myself and my mind, I saw, I was the SAME as when I started this path From SANITY to INSANITY and back again. I was SANE than so I am still NOW.
in ADDITION after I found more people, that this had been done.
1. put in mental ward lock up for 72 hours , left city for another, the VOICES in his head stopped or learned FRENCH (he doesn't speak French), He realized the WOMAN'S Voices in Toronto were real. His new city much quieter.
2.Contemplated suicide, instead left Toronto, I asked what is it like where you are now, "Very Quite"
3. put in mental ward for 72 hours, COMMITTED suicide. His boyfriend told me none of the medication would stop all the VOICES.
4. now passed away from natural causes, (Cancer) just thought it was the police everywhere watching him
Some think its the police, some think they are insane, some think it didn't happen at all, now they all recant their stories because they are scared to be deemed mentally unstable and go back to another 72 hour lock up in the mental ward or have what has happened to me, no one talks to you anymore from than because they all say I am insane.
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