Friday, 20 May 2011

RawTEXT1 - The 2nd thing I ever wrote, the 1st was a poem on my wall titled "Destiny"

she set the world on fire,
no one thought she could
do that
feel it
beleive it, 
you'll be walking on air

go fly, go high,
unless you kill me, (first)
than you'll be forgiven

our love will go on till you
understand that forever
how long is forever,
Eternity, what's eternity
longevity,
forever, longevity, eternity
what, what, WHAT - 
a longtime

All I need - lacks, lacks it all
-do I lack the right things to be at your 
side

I want,....I want, that’s all I hear,
you have my love, I didn't see it,
We can't have everything

I don't want to compromise

love carries us, it cares about your happiness
like a wave

Is this what H.U.R.T is to feel like -
You infected me with that pain -
you sucked me into it, and then rejected it (me?)

I am still here, how could I reject you
if I am still here.
Everything is here except your mind.

lust, love, intimacy, betrayal

Repeat yourself
Repeat yourself
Repeat yourself
Repeat
Repeat
Repeat
Repeat
yes, I don't know,
I should have yourself
I should have yourself
Yes
Yes
Yes

You have brought me to a place, 
I never wanted to go,
but I can't resist it,
You made me hate you,
let me go
The door has always been unlocked


light, that lamp has reached out from 
the wall

Fuck you, Fuck you
Fuck off, you Fuck off

I hate this, my door has been unlocked
as well

Where the hell are we?

Call me - Slap me/rip me/smash me
throw me the pair of Gucci's
over
I am not buying anymore pairs of these
you broke it!
It’s yours forever

I know what you are all about!
(black)

I can't be anything else
then that, me
you made me, you have the mold
I think you haven't broken it, so you can throw me away
like a (my) friend.
How many clones of us are there?

Please....- you're unique!

Now get out!

Come on, come on, entertain me, that's why you are here! what you are here for, is!
me, not you, its all for me,
you are here for me,
all of me,

I am all of you
I am your all, here, near, never far away,
from you, me, him, just be..
one more night make me believe,
I should break the mould.

FUCK, FUCK, FUCK

I have a headache

please, please, please, please
believe me
you can't steal this, I won't let you.

Yes, I have, I have, I will have,
some new powerful friends
prove to me your membership!

some people think he's mentally retarded.
he's just slow at learning his lessons.

I really want to go now
I want somebody to help me.
Where did they all go?

WE"RE HERE, just choose the right path.

let my voice be your guide.
actions speak loader than words
no time left to reflect on words
go, go, its time to follow the tracks

it needs to end - in a whisper,
even the whisper echoes in the beyond, in eternity,
in the darkness
in the beyond, it does not, will not disappear.

flick, it’s alright
         the light
         it’s alright
         it’s alright
         is it?
         its all right, a little birdie in the wall saw so.
(said so)
Why does no one, want to help?
help yourself,
You think that you now what’s going on,
don't you?

I do know, no you don't know,
Yes i do,i control, I'm in control,
You think you control, 
its alright, you are not in control,


We are here together! /
I want what you have taken away, back
I miss the better days!

We together are the best days
I have ever had.

Thank-you - Have I filled you with - with love, my caring?
my fulfillment!
Yes, but - no buts I hate that word,
You won't let me say can't,
I get the word, but taken out of your vocabulary
I can't let you go, - But I hate you!

Did you offer the guide / No you offered it to me
Wait / you are confusing me.
I thought you saw better in the dark.
in the beyond!
Don't turn on the light
Why, will it blind you?
Blind me to you and yours

Why, what - you know
know what - say it
Say what
I won't let you get away, with it!
Your therapist has a big mouth
You still sleep 14 hours every few days
That's when I escape you.
into the general population
to hand off the helmet
to whom ever will take it than
watching, not scared to show there faces

I want to leave this place!
I don't think I can stop
Where I am / where am I?

My mind / my body / my apt.
the forbidden door still is locked, but
I keep searching for the key.

Do you hold the key / did you lock the door while
I slept.
You don't sleep anymore / so when could I have locked it?
While I was in the bath / Your therapy session
You believe in me so much
I am not capable of altering your mind.

We no longer live in a post 911 world
leaders have changed, the world has changed
negatively
now its time to look towards the positive
rebuild relationships - we will start with individual ones
and go from there

You! Your blackness consumes me
It put me in awe, like the dust that fills my skin,
you can't wash me away!

We speak of progress! We walk shoulder to shoulder, but 
your teeth marks brand me yours forever,
but what’s forever - which world am I speaking of -
now or tomorrows?
Why? / Yes, why do you hate yourself so much? let the dust
layer on your skin fill in the wrinkles on your neck!
You disgust me!
that’s why!
are you deaf? 
I said you disgust me, I won't leave you alone.

What the fuck are you looking at?
what the fuck are you doing?
I want you dead as much as you want yourself dead
(decaying in the ground)

Go, GO, tracks, follow those tracks to the hounds of hell
it will stop in the station where the doberman lies
waiting.

inside your mind, inside the body, but the mind will
rejuvenate you to the insane.
the few, the clever, the elite few of us that let the door
swing both ways.

I will guide you through the passages of your mind
Don't be afraid....., it’s beautiful on the other side/
-take my hand - I will slip my finger in your ear,
close your eyes you will feel a tinkle behind your ear?
open your eyes the journey has begun - we are home together,
forever my love

because I won't, because I want to let you go
if you trust - it starts off all white and clean.
journey,
travel,
it’s the ride of your life
walk through it

Get out of my mind - You will not control 
control me that way (why?)
Your intellect is no match to my skin, hair and bones
The battle is - no equal - or is it to much of a challenge.
I have the darkest secrets (for you) for me, for you.
I will pull them out of my back pocket to bring you 
down to the gutter, the river of dirt you tried to leave
and wash it away - You can't hide your behind
"you mean past"

I can see more with my eyes closed
in the darkness
Your eyes my be ice blue and beautiful but you are blind
to me

The hand of God, has caressed my face, but the divine light
that shines over you, shows the shadows and wrinkles of your
soul.


she has separated him (junior)
him, his friends, his family
-lured him with the body,
his revenge for being driven insane,
she must take the entire journey.....as well,
Journey into it
she thinks she controls him.
she walks in the shadows, but his mind roams the
darkness.

oh my fucking God, you can't think I am that!
I am not the Devil; I am part of you,
you don't exist without me.
Its out of love, your love has made me do those things,
to you.
Its out of love, I isolated you,
out of pure love for your soul / for you
if for you (its all for you)
Are we, We are now one.

There's blood left, suck it up / hide it!
I've had it.
Now you are a part of me, forever, together
eternal

I don't deserve you, but will you have me?
I am trying to convince you to take me
I am trying to consume....

Dangerous little game, she playing
Piglet that dangerous little game you play.

People that try to intimate don't understand,
the darkness I wander in during the broad daylight
Stop no / Stop / Stop, What are you looking at,
no I will not stop and listen / there is no one there.

No one cares who you are; I am the only one that cares,
that peers, look at me
look at the love
it floats in my eyes, understand it
-look deep, you can and I will allow you to see my...
(the) soul - the soul
(beautiful)

You are the only one that understands how to navigate to the 
core of my mind
your soul?
-I am offering you, what no other deserves
virgin - we'll see
you are unique
am i special (special enough) for you collection?
Am I or I am, beautiful enough to hang on your wall(s) 
with your precious words?......(now)

Fuck you, you bitches, (God & Devil) I win, he chooses me!
My voice will resenate through time, forever 
though his ears, mind and the beyond.

Thank-you God for opening my eyes and giving me my prince.
Yes
my love! the love, its burns hotter and brighter inside of me
I am all consuming
You feel - you are the mere fuel / you feel
(you are my all)
let’s rest forever; my father would be so proud.

white tub, black drain
do you hear that, it’s running, it’s draining in the walls
I hear it in the walls
you feel?
eyes black there's no color
you are so beautiful - right now - I can't look away
I can't believe I found my princess and lost my prince.

alliances had to be made, 
battles had to be waged, 
but wars are won with the greatest
Our greatest weapon is patience my mother always told me
patience is a virtue / she's an angel
Archangel Michael?

the body can imprison, but love enslaves
love is everything

Why don't you come over here tonight and kill the one
you say you love.
You love me so much you want to keep me locked away in
my heart.

No, my soul tells me you cannot live without me, Your Soul?
Been to your therapist and done some reflection.
I am going to rip out your eyes so you cannot see me,
my, my voice will guide you to where your nails can cut
into my flesh and bone. (tactical)
the mind, the imagination rules over the scent,
your scent,
your blood flow.

Open your purse, let’s see how heavy the reflecting till be
this week

I always wondered what it would be like to hold all the cards.
Lay them down on the table; take a sip of my Gin and Tonic,
-watch the eye twitch,
-watch the chips flip,
-watch the bitch smile

The devil gave me intuition, God just threatened to take my sunglasses
away.
The choice was easy.

She now sits on the floor crying on the phone, back agaisnt the wall,
sitting -
he walks around as if she is not there, turning out all the lights
and goes to bed.
she is not in his apartment but in hers.
after all the lights have been turned out
from the microwave oven timer, you see her face
she's screaming into her place,
her phone.
she stands up flicks on the kitchen light she's,
in her own 

Does someone have to live in their home to live like this?
This is not living - well it is! Yes it is, where I live
so I must live like this.

Who told you that / you told me that?
open your purse!
I don't need this shit
Eyes said raised
I don't need this shit from you!

Why you here? She needs something!
The price went up with that little lie.
need a coat hanger (i don't need it!)- lie got a little deeper (in here)
Where or when did you meet the Devil or God?

Who meet who!

You gutterslut, cunt, cum swallowing, skank
whore, yes I do have evidence.
I know everything, patience,
I just had to push hard enough for people to finally
start listening.
Even a blind judge, you will believe me.
Took you down, who's living in false world of grandeur now
I hate peasants / stupid people, now
wash my floor bitch.

Who are you? who said people lie
are you lying to me?
I can see pretty well (now).
Why would you think I am an odd little fellow?
I'm a fucking what, (You're a fucking slut) who's that?
Oh shut up!
You're going to get beat up
You only have to say it once for me to hear it.
Call me
I can't follow the wire down the ventilation shaft.
(I can follow it, I can hear it load and clear)

Crazy lady...
all you say is, 
got to protect the children
got to protect the children
bitch shut up
got to protect the children

she types on her back , and lies on her back for all to see

I don't fucking believe this shit,
I can't fuck my girlfriend with you screaming
got to protect the children

bursts into flames, she catches on fire

Thank, God

into flames, they burst into laughter
your bush on fire
bitch…..Done.

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