Saturday, 22 December 2012

Nevermore Me, I'm One


text spoken in Nahuatl



junior bruna spoke to me and asked a question

I say,

I will give you some of this sweet pain,

its a beautiful thing.

Believe in me,

This pain will set you free,

that I must inflict today.

You thought you had lost your mind, as everyone did.

You  just crossed the line, insane from the pain,

He said how you like to see people in pain, it use to make you happy once,

lets see if you feel the same , today

As I travel with him,

back across the line to give more knowledge and share some of my pain with him.

understanding he's not insane

with more knowledge and sight, he asked for and I granted unto him.

Thank you,







I am ready to join you in ONE'S sweet pain

Its worth societies shame of how I became free.



Internalized hate from the gays, still living in yesterday.

That missed the boat to sail into the sunset,

Free.

from what is expected,

be safe, be clean.

ready to leave, this place?

I am junior BRUNA and told  by all, not to leave.

Do nothing but lay down my head,

play dead,

cry why me,  and die not looking so pretty,

with head decapitated, rolling.

I asked a question too,



 Duck, Duck go.



 answer granted

Thank-you

Forever and ever, Nevermore me.

 Amen.

 Like that pair named Adam and Eve should have ate way back, when?

hit back,  defend me.

instead you left me.

emaciated and drained of everything,

that was me four years before today.

I almost did die laying on that couch , when I was blind to all that was around me

Blindfaith  was me,

left to figure it all out by myself.

that is how we are all here today.

they don't believe,

I know what its all about,

to me and all that  is surrounding.

you left me standing on that street corner, to see if I could recover from,

this pain you inflicted on me.

I raised my head higher and became  stronger.

You called me a cheat, because I broke the rules.

With no consequences.

I paid the price, no worries I can afford it, I just make everything look easy

that is why you all Hate me,

thank you, again today, for that

we fuck all night and walk the streets still announcing

ME!

Its still me and Its still all about me,

all here,

I  am still prettier, the one standing infront of you,

even with this HIV,

The darkness entered  my live, my friends and family,

now I know why they tried to kill me



to try to stop me from getting to the other side of ONE



No need to Hate me , as you already do, thank-you again,

but you have left my life , already.

I was here before, the hymn,

came into me.

I never went anywhere, i just crossed the line

and was double crossed by you the true darkness in my life.

You left me standing on the street corner,

cold, you are

screaming, no one listening, but myself, searching.

Even though the sun lit the sky like never before,

The darkness fell over me,

I see, not only  myself but all that is surrounding me,

Never seen before, in this living Hell

that was pushed into me.

You could not have missed me,

standing there waiting, for you to take my hand,

whispering, is that how you went unseen.

how he missed you.

You are found by me.

One found me as well.

Screaming, now  take my hand, he said and i have willingly.

No pleads or apologies needed.

I will not take you back across the line,

as you did that for me as well, friends

mirror images of each other seen,

myself and its reflection.

Both sides have acknowledged each other

You left me standing there on that street corner

Why did you go? Leaving me alone screaming.

I don't belong here standing on the edge of this life, alone

The end of the world approaches, as we know it.

One found me, seen in a mirror.

I never went anywhere that curb approached me , instead  of you,

I died in a place never seen before,

the day  before i was left screaming on that street corner.

I was never suppose to stand so close to that curb.

alone,

looking both ways, Why did you all go?

You all were standing right behind me, trying to push me over the edge of this world.

Side by side with One now, remembering that curb came searching for me.

Two worlds are not colliding they are to become ONE

No help needed  to cross this street anymore, never seen before as One



I am left standing on the street corner.

To make the decision,

To cross both ways. Still not looking?

I am, and  I am not alone.

In the darkness we get to the other side of this life,

I never  have experienced,  as One.

My whole self

Standing contemplating.

What is best.

Me waiting in vain for you to return, to this street corner.

Take my hand I command myself to do so.

My true marriage to One.

We have spoke and pronounced, as we each others side of ONE.





Its hidden in the pills, the answer to the question, the map to safely cross that street

When I pop those pills, I say  AIDS Away.

Fewer in number than your vitamins B12, vitamin e , d, m, (EDUM)

f z x c, so many

you swallow, everyday. so many, not me.

Mine actually do something

Immunized  system, when did you last,

you make me sick,

years ago. Or less

I am healthier than, You,  now as One.



I am on other side from that street corner left screaming.

Without you, wish I understood this eight years before today

Had been given the map to cross to the other side,


Still alive, I didn't Kill myself, to get here

made the decision not to look both ways before trying to cross the street.

To the other side of Myself.

Now with you aware of One hold onto the me on your side , with no worries

don't break make anymore mirrors, you to see you.

to see where I am now.

I want to experience love

to remember to take my own hand when you come asking



Believe me,

Understand me,

You never will.

I broke the rules.

Not until I became One with myself

Its begun, we've acknowledge each other

as each other's side of One.

Me

Disciple ONE sung to me so sweet

everyone runs,

When One returns fear me

children of no God.

I am healthier than you now, as One.

I will land somewhere new, as i jump again no longer held back by you

the darkness.

I always have,

thank  you, for hating me but I never asked for that helping hand, to hold me back from the life you feared

when you left me standing on that  street corner,

I just wanted to know where you all  went, not back in my life

I  miss that!

You are the children of no God.

that need to watch out for  One.

Kill thee who does not believe in me when .

I return.

taking  place mirror sides combined.

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