Friday, 28 December 2012

The Children of No God.

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I asked for sight, to see
not only for all that surrounds ME
but to see MYSELF truthfully.
Request granted.
AND I,
am worth everything given as payment.
For these eyes, no longer blind

Children of no God.
Who will you pray to, when,
ONE returns from the other side.
Cold he is, a beautiful sight of you has been my gift to him,
of the Children of no God, here on this dirt of earth.
enlightenment commands man,
To See the light,
do you pray Children of no God,
and if so,
What do you pray for?
To show you, what is all around us?
To cure your blindness?
Of your ignorance,
Of your prejudice,

No, you do not.
I know this,
because that is all the One needs to come back from across the line,
and he is not here,
standing at my side, with knowledge of all that surrounds,
with him among us.
Understanding.
back to this earth he is coming
Sight is being given without your asking,
my gift to you all.
The Children of no God
Fear him, when One who returns,
kills the ones,
that do not illuminate enlightenment from inside their hearts.
Dark is he,
It will be, when he comes looking to collect sin, now marked his, by the cruelty he has seen,
but if you look to your left on this earth when One arrives,
light is collecting and crests the horizon at the same time.
two worlds collide,
dark and light come collecting,
at the same time never seen before,
War between dark and light will entangle us all
here on the dirt under foot, earth.
Three worlds combine for once, everything surrounding us seen by all sides. now


I am stuck somewhere in between
light is me, this devil blue,
branded a sinner, dark as well now, so MARKED FOR ETERNITY.
Banished here to earth
To relive the revelation of my sin, repeatedly,
Each time not myself whole,
I am darkness I am light, never combined as ONE seen, only each part individually.
I hurt each time they come and I am judged laying beneath them,
as they pass by over me.
only seeing their half judgment, me bleeding my sin for the other side of them.
that is why I lay beneath, bleeding my sorrow and pain
they can't accept me back because of my one sin.
So I lay beneath all others as I reside here with you,
Children of no God, and see where hate has decided to call home.
Its all around me and that is why they come to collect,
this sin here over and over again.


I yearn for understanding
He hates if, I think of that,
One thing he hates, all of the Children of no God,
which makes me think of love,
which makes him unforgiving of my one sin.
To think of understanding
To understand love,
Now to understand why hate is the reason love does not exist in this place.
I create Hate for the Children of no God, who have been, betrayed by those stories of faith,
none of you understanding but following each other blindly, here
never asking for the sight to see truthfully, all that is here surrounding,
how it is all here placed by ONE.
Is that your God or my other side of One,
I wait to return to this dirt, earth
The Blue Devil beneath you all, with my sight granted to me
Is giving all sides sight, all without asking.
Blindness cured, for all will cleanse this earth of
it s Hate to have love understood
and at my feet not hate, that eats away at everything.

sight, to see all knowledge of each others existence, knowledge being granted,
of what is being seen for the first time hidden, by all that are blind.
have you started to see with my eyes, see what is out there
never seen by all, denied?

as I am an evil one and this light that is me, granted when asking honestly after left abandoned seeps though my skin and out truthfully, flowing out and all around.
Me, Myself and I
the other side of One see with no lies
as it does for all others like myself out there searching.
For the way home.
Now knowing there isn't forgiveness for every sin.
Even with sight asked for honestly and granted truthfully.
Another's hate still stops me from understanding love.

both sides see each other because of me, myself,
I and devils blue from both sides,
banished and searching.



Saturday, 22 December 2012

Nevermore Me, I'm One


text spoken in Nahuatl



junior bruna spoke to me and asked a question

I say,

I will give you some of this sweet pain,

its a beautiful thing.

Believe in me,

This pain will set you free,

that I must inflict today.

You thought you had lost your mind, as everyone did.

You  just crossed the line, insane from the pain,

He said how you like to see people in pain, it use to make you happy once,

lets see if you feel the same , today

As I travel with him,

back across the line to give more knowledge and share some of my pain with him.

understanding he's not insane

with more knowledge and sight, he asked for and I granted unto him.

Thank you,







I am ready to join you in ONE'S sweet pain

Its worth societies shame of how I became free.



Internalized hate from the gays, still living in yesterday.

That missed the boat to sail into the sunset,

Free.

from what is expected,

be safe, be clean.

ready to leave, this place?

I am junior BRUNA and told  by all, not to leave.

Do nothing but lay down my head,

play dead,

cry why me,  and die not looking so pretty,

with head decapitated, rolling.

I asked a question too,



 Duck, Duck go.



 answer granted

Thank-you

Forever and ever, Nevermore me.

 Amen.

 Like that pair named Adam and Eve should have ate way back, when?

hit back,  defend me.

instead you left me.

emaciated and drained of everything,

that was me four years before today.

I almost did die laying on that couch , when I was blind to all that was around me

Blindfaith  was me,

left to figure it all out by myself.

that is how we are all here today.

they don't believe,

I know what its all about,

to me and all that  is surrounding.

you left me standing on that street corner, to see if I could recover from,

this pain you inflicted on me.

I raised my head higher and became  stronger.

You called me a cheat, because I broke the rules.

With no consequences.

I paid the price, no worries I can afford it, I just make everything look easy

that is why you all Hate me,

thank you, again today, for that

we fuck all night and walk the streets still announcing

ME!

Its still me and Its still all about me,

all here,

I  am still prettier, the one standing infront of you,

even with this HIV,

The darkness entered  my live, my friends and family,

now I know why they tried to kill me



to try to stop me from getting to the other side of ONE



No need to Hate me , as you already do, thank-you again,

but you have left my life , already.

I was here before, the hymn,

came into me.

I never went anywhere, i just crossed the line

and was double crossed by you the true darkness in my life.

You left me standing on the street corner,

cold, you are

screaming, no one listening, but myself, searching.

Even though the sun lit the sky like never before,

The darkness fell over me,

I see, not only  myself but all that is surrounding me,

Never seen before, in this living Hell

that was pushed into me.

You could not have missed me,

standing there waiting, for you to take my hand,

whispering, is that how you went unseen.

how he missed you.

You are found by me.

One found me as well.

Screaming, now  take my hand, he said and i have willingly.

No pleads or apologies needed.

I will not take you back across the line,

as you did that for me as well, friends

mirror images of each other seen,

myself and its reflection.

Both sides have acknowledged each other

You left me standing there on that street corner

Why did you go? Leaving me alone screaming.

I don't belong here standing on the edge of this life, alone

The end of the world approaches, as we know it.

One found me, seen in a mirror.

I never went anywhere that curb approached me , instead  of you,

I died in a place never seen before,

the day  before i was left screaming on that street corner.

I was never suppose to stand so close to that curb.

alone,

looking both ways, Why did you all go?

You all were standing right behind me, trying to push me over the edge of this world.

Side by side with One now, remembering that curb came searching for me.

Two worlds are not colliding they are to become ONE

No help needed  to cross this street anymore, never seen before as One



I am left standing on the street corner.

To make the decision,

To cross both ways. Still not looking?

I am, and  I am not alone.

In the darkness we get to the other side of this life,

I never  have experienced,  as One.

My whole self

Standing contemplating.

What is best.

Me waiting in vain for you to return, to this street corner.

Take my hand I command myself to do so.

My true marriage to One.

We have spoke and pronounced, as we each others side of ONE.





Its hidden in the pills, the answer to the question, the map to safely cross that street

When I pop those pills, I say  AIDS Away.

Fewer in number than your vitamins B12, vitamin e , d, m, (EDUM)

f z x c, so many

you swallow, everyday. so many, not me.

Mine actually do something

Immunized  system, when did you last,

you make me sick,

years ago. Or less

I am healthier than, You,  now as One.



I am on other side from that street corner left screaming.

Without you, wish I understood this eight years before today

Had been given the map to cross to the other side,


Still alive, I didn't Kill myself, to get here

made the decision not to look both ways before trying to cross the street.

To the other side of Myself.

Now with you aware of One hold onto the me on your side , with no worries

don't break make anymore mirrors, you to see you.

to see where I am now.

I want to experience love

to remember to take my own hand when you come asking



Believe me,

Understand me,

You never will.

I broke the rules.

Not until I became One with myself

Its begun, we've acknowledge each other

as each other's side of One.

Me

Disciple ONE sung to me so sweet

everyone runs,

When One returns fear me

children of no God.

I am healthier than you now, as One.

I will land somewhere new, as i jump again no longer held back by you

the darkness.

I always have,

thank  you, for hating me but I never asked for that helping hand, to hold me back from the life you feared

when you left me standing on that  street corner,

I just wanted to know where you all  went, not back in my life

I  miss that!

You are the children of no God.

that need to watch out for  One.

Kill thee who does not believe in me when .

I return.

taking  place mirror sides combined.

Friday, 14 December 2012

Crossed Unknowingly Into The Dark (first trip) 2008



Some photos from my time on the other side of light, make sure you know which way the energy is flowing before you leave. Both ways can warp most of your "minds" but one is well......dark inside. They don't bite, i still lift my feet when we cross each others path, just a bit of earth still under my feet that makes me do that.












some advice,












Saturday, 8 December 2012

still at it ladies and Polly Anna

I was on a Nicole Haven's page, and she is whatever...I was looking I was thinking where is your life fore the world to see you. You have the world blocked not to see you or your life all its goods and bads. Friends that know you and don't personally get to see you lifetime time line and just your live general. You control and limit the world to influence you by fear of what. Someone not liking you you controlling who reads you, control over people in your life...
You are hiding. I asked her a question are you a "Strong Confident Woman" she better reply no, because if she was she would place her thoughts in the op[en with her name, if not your words your  live your ideas are worthless without each other, became is a name nothing more, Actions without who took them are waste of everyone's time they become invalid. Live is only and live that is lived by a strong confident person lets it all show. Judge me, mock me, you need to respect me, as I still respect you, my wishes are mine..stop trying to invalidate my life when I don't get to see your name or live you lead.

I hate again today...

and odd things are odd..i don't care..I have people at me all day and night






explain this

Two moldeings on window,
a house roof shape on windrow, blinds missing section including beaded curtain




From just this Morning




two photos



 take look at blur right side of page,, than notice entire edge of photo



Thursday, 6 December 2012

Snapped these this afternoon



pics

                                                                       dec - feb 2009

Left on the Street Corner, Screaming?

I will give you some of this sweet pain,  its a beautiful thing.
Believe in me,
This pain will set you free,
that I must inflict on you today.
You thought I had lost my mind again,
 I just got back from across the line
insane from the pain,
I remember how you like the hurt and to see people in pain.
it use to make you happy once, lets see if you feel the same , today
As i travel back again across the line
with more knowledge and sight, asked for and granted to me
I am ready to join you in ONE'S sweet pain
Its worth societies shame of how I became free.

Internalized hate from the gays, still living in yesterday.
That missed the boat to sail into the sunset,
Free
from what is expected be safe, Clean
to leave, stay hidden, I am told don't leave this place
to do nothing but lay down my head, cry why me, and die not looking so pretty,
with our heads decapitated, rolling
 Duck, Duck go.
Forever and ever, Nevermore Amen
 like that pair named Adam and Eve
should have ate way back, when?
hit back,  defend me
instead you left me
emaciated and drained of everything, that was me four years before
I almost did die laying on that couch.
When I was blind to all that is around me
We broke the rules, they call me a cheat
I paid the price, no worries I can afford it, I just make everything look easy
thats why you all Hate me, thank you, again today
we fuck all night and walk the streets still announcing
ME!
Its me still.
Its still about me
We are all here,
Still prettier than you, even with this HIV,
The darkness entered  my live, now I know why they tried to kill me

I am the other side of One

No need to Hate me , as you already do ,thank-you,
but you have left my life , already
I was here before, the HYME
came into me
I never went anywhere, just crossed into the darkness
You left me standing on the street corner,
cold, you are
screaming, no one listening, but me
Even though the sun lit the sky like never before,
The darkness feel over me,
I see, not only  me, but all that is surrounding, never seen before in this living Hell
that has been pushed into me
You could not have missed me standing there waiting, for you to take my hand,
whispering,
is that how you missed me
how he missed you
You are found
and
They found me
Screaming, now  take my hand
No pleads or apologies needed
I will take you back across the line,as you do for me as well
We are mirror images of each other
Both sides have acknowledged the other
You left me standing there on the street corner.
Why did you go? Leaving me alone.
I don't belong here standing on the edge of this life, alone
staring at all of you, with them laughing.
The end of the world approaches, as we all know it
I never went anywhere that curb approached me , instead  of you,
I die in a place I have never seen before
the day  after I was left screaming on the corner, where did you all go
home?
I never was suppose to stand this close, to the truth,
alone,
looking both ways, Why did you all go?
Standing right behind waiting, ready to cross over side by side, as One
remember the curb is approaching us, no need
Two worlds are not colliding they are to become ONE
No help needed  to cross this street anymore, never seen before.

I am left standing on the street corner alone
To make the decision,
To cross both ways. Still not looking I am, we're not alone
In the darkness we get the other side of this life
I never  have experienced,  not alone
Standing contemplating.
What is best.
Me waiting in vain for you to return, to this street corner.
Take my hand I command you as you me.
My true marriage awaits you all
We have spoke and pronounced, as we each others side of ONE.


Its hidden in the pills, the answer to the question, the map to safely cross that street
When I pop those pills,  say  AIDS Away.
Fewer in number than your vitamins B12, vitamin e , d, m, (EDUM)
f z x c, so many
you swallow, everyday. so many, not me. Mine actually do something
Immunized  system, when did you last,
you make me sick
years ago. Or less
I am healthier than, You,  as One now

I am on other side of that street corner, now somehow
Without you, wish I understood this eight years before today
Had been given the map to cross to the other side,


Still alive, I didn't Kill myself, to get here
made the decision not to look both ways before trying to cross the street.
To the other side
Now with you aware of One hold onto me on this side , with no worries
don't break make anymore mirrors, we need to see each
I want to experience love

Believe, me,
Understand me,
You never will, ,, we broke the rules.
Not until I become One with my other side.
Its begun, we've acknowledge each other
as each other's side of One.

Wednesday, 5 December 2012

from 2008 -myself



me after the full moon


I Understand Now...these taken in 2009








                                                          




                                                       this one taken yesterday

Tuesday, 4 December 2012

closer achieved,




Me six months before I moved into Hell and one year before all this took place..








this was me in the middle of searching and being "humbled and reminded of who I am and will be always, I MADE THEM do this to me they say.



'

All done, found info online, just wanted to prove I did not do this to myself. I did not make it up. I speak the truth of this situation, I am sound and not doubting what I say what happened. 
I found you


found the path back to myself as well today.





12:58......am




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I became the Incredible Shrinking Mother the year they started junior high. If our relationship today depended on physical clout, I would have about the same influence with them that the republic of Liechtenstein has on world politics. LESS
The junior senator from Wisconsin, by his reckless charges, has so preyed upon the fears and hatreds and prejudices of the American people that he has started a prairie fire which neither he nor anyone else may be able to control. LESS
Long before your child sets foot in his dorm, you'll begin the transition to college-style parent. It's a transition fraught withmisgivings and exuberance, with self-doubt and bursts of confidence, with joyful letting go and tearful hanging on. And in case you think these refer only to your child's feelings, they don't. These [emotions] besiege just about every parent along about second semester of junior year in high school. That's when the reality sets in that your child--not someone else's this time--will be going off to college. LESS
I am opposed to writing about the private lives of living authors and psychoanalyzing them while they are alive. Criticism is getting all mixed up with a combination of the Junior F.B.I.- men, discards from Freud and Jung and a sort of Columnist peep- hole and missing laundry list school.... Every young English professor sees gold in them dirty sheets now. Imagine what they can do with the soiled sheets of four legal beds by the same writer and you can see why their tongues are slavering. LESS
It is no accident that banks resemble temples, preferably Greek, and that the supplicants who come to perform the rites of depositand withdrawal instinctively lower their voices into the registers of awe. Even the most junior tellers acquire within weeks of their employment the officiousness of hierophants tending an eternal flame. I don't know how they become so quickly inducted into the presiding mysteries, or who instructs them in the finely articulated inflections of contempt for the laity, but somehow they learn to think of themselves as suppliers of the monetarized DNA that is the breath of life. LESS
Before I get through with you, you will have a clear case for divorce and so will my wife. Now, the first thing to do is arrange for a settlement. You take the children, your husband takes the house, Junior burns down the house, you take the insurance and I take you! LESS
The parent-adolescent relationship is like a partnership in which the senior partner (the parent) has more expertise in many areasbut looks forward to the day when the junior partner (the adolescent) will take over the business of running his or her own life. LESS
If "heavy metal" was the Anglo-American contribution to low culture, then "rap" was the African-American donation. And if "metal" came from the garage where Junior had been sent with his guitar and extension cord, then rap came from the street where young blacks played the only instruments they could afford--the mouth organ and the foot drum. Rap is performed in street clothes; metal in elaborate costumes of leather and fringe. In metal, the volume carries the aggression; in rap it is the words. Both are rife with adolescent misogyny, homophobia, and threats of violence. They are rude, bawdy, boastful, with a kind of "in your face" aggression (called "attitude") characteristic of insecure masculinity. Both musical forms were unique, however, in that they produced platinum records with little radio exposure. They found their audience on MTV. LESS
Never burn bridges. Today's junior prick, tomorrow's senior partner. 
Getting hit really isn't that bad. The worst part is getting beat. 
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