The Madness That is Me (writing)

Since my neighbours want to help me write, I will put "The Fall of Love" on the back table and write a segment of "The Madness that is Me". Why? Well I am going to write a true story into it so they can't help me write it as it truly happened.
It is my arrest which is filled with homophobia, apathy, and Anti -HIV graffiti  from inside Police Division House - 51 Division on Parliament St. in Toronto.

A quick idea what it will have in it.
Myself calling 911 on the Police Officers at my door.
Being called a Faggot by a Female Police Officer, (on tape stated with her head in side the cruiser window with me in the back seat handcuffed.
Being given false Officer Names of two Officers driving me to 51 Division. The officer told me "I am Montgomery and this is Coffee" ( how do I know they are false well at least Montgomery is wrong, I was told by and Officer Chewlue they do not have and Officer Montgomery at 51 Division. As he was going to arrest me on the spot since I was lying I had ever been arrested, I had never been to 51 Division, or to a detention centre for the weekend or to trail, "which I pleaded guilty to PUBLIC MISCHIEF, so I would not be remanded for TWO WEEKS" )
Also as I am being read my rights told I could have three lawyers, and I stated" I don't understand three" They just laughed and stopped reading me my rights.
Only question I was asked "Who is my next of kin?" the only questioned asked. They got it wrong not my mother it would have been my Husband.
After telling police I was HIV Positive, place in a drunk tank cell with an upside down HIV symbol drawn on the wall under the camera. The first words that came out of my mouth when placed in the cell."What is this the gay cell? Nice an upside down AIDS on the wall."

etc....

I think it will make a good addition to the Telelvion show I am trying to write currently.

Still Today, Same as Yesterday and The Day Before That.......

I "HATE" yes the word I am trying to fight agaisnt I have to use. I HATE everyone in Toronto and that now spreads to most people in this country again.I can hear people in my city telling me to kill myself, just repeating every move I make in my apartment. Places of employment of people I know. They yell out my families names even down to cousins I barely see. I am told to call my mother or these woman will slit my face open, and thats not a death threat just a threat of disfigurement so not as big of a deal......EVER FUCKING DAY, EVERY FUCKING DAY.....I tried to right again last night and as soon as I started they started to yell suggestions and TRY TO HELP ME WRITE as they are better at that than me as well as most things in life. I am just a loser and that has been scrapped on my front door into the paint.(So again I got no work done for another FUCKING DAY)
TORONTO FUCK YOU FOR ANOTHER FUCKING DAY

Yesterday, at Lawyers

My eight year marriage creeps closer to an end. Divorce papers were filed with the court yesterday. Just a matter of time now.
Waiting, Waiting, Waiting............................

What is the Relevance of Posting...Another Suicide.

Everyday of my life now in Toronto, I am told by woman to kill myself. That they are just voices in my head. They are my my conscious, it would be better for me to be dead. Not just for me, but my family and everyone else as well

That is the relevance.

Get it!


I AM VIRUS

A scene from the "The Madness That Is Me"

I posted awhile ago the very first thoughts I had about a piece titled "The Madness That is Me":. here is a scene were the main characters two men up on Balcony late at night looking down into the alley. There is also Drag Queen named "Mother" she is the matriarch of drags in the city.
one of the boys sees something going on down in the ally, this is how they all first meet the newest Drag Queen in the city, completely unknown one soon to be named "Humpty Dumpty"


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One guy stands on the balcony at night (3am) looks down into the alley way.

"News report coming in we have a drag queen down in the alley way"
"Oh No"
"Wait, no its not an assault, she's just pissed drunk down there. Girl get up off those knees you're going to ruin those stockings"
"Wait...oh there's someone else down there with her. Lets see if any money exchanges hands.....Nope, she ain't no whore she's just a slut...SLUT"
...ahh the guys off and running, don't want to be seen getting a blow job from a drag uh."?
"Oh she's down, she's down for the count, she must be trashed"
"Oh shit I think its Mother"
"No, No Mothers up on her balcony over there"
"Mother we thought you were down in the alley giving blow jobs away again, but its one of your kind passed out down there"
"You better get down there and help her, we ain't going down there"
(mother from her balcony)
"where, where"
(two boys)
"right down there"
(mother)
"keep an eye on her, give me a minute to throw on my nurses outfit"
(two boys)
"No worries take your time, she ain't going anywhere quick. That prick that was with her just took off on her"

(Mother makes her way down to alley way. She looks up to the boys.)
"How could you think that this heffer down here was me she's at least a size 14 or more, I'm only a size 5"

(from balcony)
"Mother since when where you a size 5 this ani't the 1970's anymore."

(Mother gives them the finger, Mother gets on cellphone)

"Girls, Girls, listen, listen up.....christ...its Mother......there's some new girl passed out in the alley and she is to big for me to get up alone, i need some help. at least a 14..i know ....at least she'll have good cleavage....oh she is a mess she has pepperoni in her hair and....oh you know who she is, alley right behind Superfresh Grocery "

"While we're waiting might as well clean you up a bit"
She starts than her evil side out and starts over doing the making.
"Humpty Dumpty took fall, slide down the wall, scraped her knees"
bounced around
more than once
rikashade here rickashade there
rolled around and down
that hill
looks like she might have been knocked around a bit as well
(from balcony)
"NO she just just pissed drunk and fell down, she just some slut given a blow job by back door, she's not a whore"
poke poke poked
by few dicks
"Don't get us wrong, we are sluts yes we are sluts, (one guy to his friend on balcony) you have been yelling that off the balcony how long and no guys have come over.
(mother)
he had a stroke
when he realized
he liked a few of those pokes
now he's on his back laying in the trash,
just for some quick cash.
hum
Now you look like Humpty Dumpty that fell down"

(From Balcony)
She might be bruised,
she might cry
whoa as me
she'll say
its not my fault he did it to me.
never asked
for that in my ass.

While it was sticking out of my pants
it almost got pounded flat
By that guy while I was on my back
I don't think he will be coming back
Now that I have a wide loaded ass

Do you think that is what she'll say when she wakes up? and make she to tell severyone she not a whore, just a slut that got fucked in the alley way and that how she
got that scrap on her butt.

(Humpty Dumpty)
"chips"
(Mother)
"What"
(Humpty Dumpty)
"chips"
(from Balcony)
"That's why you fat girl, she's still trying to grab for chips and she is past out, Holy Shit, Now am hungry, we have any.? later Mother, get home safe,"
(Mother)
'Later Bitches'
(From balcony)
"Um UM'
Mother)
"Girl I don't got any chips I'm calling you Humpty Dumpty, You are huge, how the hell did you guys think this was me down here, I think this is, I don't even know...what is this made out of where she got this outfit.
(from Balcony)
"Its as old as you Mother, you remember you are Old....how old....how old" (they are back out on balcony with chips in hand)
(Mother)
I am 28, I am 28..you all know that.
(from Balcony)
yeah yeah you'll never make it to 30, we heard it all before MOTHER..

(from end of alley two other drags appear)
"Mother, Mother"
(mother)
"Down here"
(two drag)
"You're evil, she didn't look like that earlier tonight"
(mother)
"Help me get her up"
"What's her?"
(two drags)
"@#$#%"
(mother)
"Her new name is Humpty Dumpty now"
(humpty dumpty)
"chips"
(two drags)v
"what she saying?"
(mother)
"She thinks we have a bag of chips, watch...Humpty Dumpty"
(humpty dumpty)
"chips"
(mother)
"stop pawing at me Humpty, here are keys take to my place, I going to the store, she'll drive me nuts all night asking for chips"

A Sad Note, I Haven't Posted Yet. Another Suicde.

About a month ago I was informed when out with a friend, that another person had killed themselves. It was a friend of one the the people I found that would speak about what was happening to them as well. He was being harassed as well, he was HIV Positive. My friend has passed away from natural causes, not related to HIV. The man that took his own life this was a close friend of his. I do not know if he was HIV positive or not.


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Unrelated  to above post, I think I will paint my hallway today, Camel.

An email from a a few months ago.

On November 28, 2011 I sent this email to the Prime Minister of Canada. I just listen to my city and email what I hear sometimes to the certain people.o



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Prime Minister Harper

I am not one for gossip, obviously. There is a rumor here in Toronto, that our Mayor Rob Ford is one of the people yelling out over the city. Not only here in the east end where I live, but I was downtown and you could here people on the street actually asking each other. Is it really Rob Ford?

We in Toronto wondered why you wouldn't meet Rob Ford inside the city limits to give your support to him, when he ran for Mayor.

Sincerely,

Christopher Thomas Thornborrow
(juniorBRUNA)


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Its 5am in Toronto

Its raining outside,
YES, I got caught in the rain on the way back from the coffee shop.
Donuts in the bag, not harmed, no worries....:)

BUT, I am trying to understand, why a woman in my neighborhood, is telling me that don't I know what a bed is, and its very late and I should be iun bed. I have been up all night on the Internet, and yelling "He's Jerking off, Junior is jerking off, everyone laugh.....



WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE IN TORONTO< IT VIRUS OF stupidity ...More and more people are getting less intelligent here...and don't is actually funny.....

She also states, that is bothers her very much that men jerk of in the homes here, There are children in this neighborhood....(Does thaty even make any sense)

Last Night, Well Early this Morning

 I was chilling out at a friend and his boyfriend's place and the one gave me some feedback about my page. Very Appreciated. "R"

"When I read your web page it makes me very tense"