Before Yesterday

                                                      

 The Blue Devil

This is from 2008, when i started to come forward about my situation.

I posted this around Toronto, and mailed it to people inside of Toronto and across Canada.  At the bottom of this first letter I have left out a small section, before it included the address of where this took place the the telephone number of the management.

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THIS IS WHAT SAINT JAMESTOWN THINKS OF MYSELF AND GAY MEN.  I HAVE HAD A YELLOW CAUTION TAPE TIED TO MY APARTMENT DOOR KNOB. THIS IS TO TELL PEOPLE IN BUILDING I AM HIV POSITIVE, AND NOT TO ENTER MY APARTMENT OR THEY WILL BE INFECTED WITH THE VIRUS.

To all Toronto,

    I have contacted ACTUP New York, ACTUP San Francisco for their opinion on the below concern.

    I am sending you this letter in regards to my concern of SARS Legislation. The reason for my interest, for the last year I have been called a disease carrying faggot by my neighbors, who really like the Morality Act in the USA. The Morality Act (Canadian equivalent – SARS legislation) discussing about the quarantine of people with contagious diseases, both the previous legislations have HIV mentioned in the documents.

    My neighbors agree that I should be quarantined or forcibly confined to my apt so I do not spread the virus. I have tried to get my story out in numerous ways, at all times with no prevail.

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    I have been told by them that they will slit my throat while I sleep, or shoot me in the head. If do leave my apartment they will go after my friends, as well. I am lying in my apartment as they continue to harass me and ask how, I contracted HIV from and who I have slept with so they can make sure I do not spread the virus. They continue to threaten to call or contact my relatives to inform them of my HIV status and state that they will harass anyone that works with me or has contact with me. 

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Since than the other ways they have threatened to kill me if i continue to contact police or bring attention to them have included.

"I want to stick you like the pig you are and watch you bleed out. That would make me happy"

"I will have you run over, by someone"

"We will have a hit put on your head"

"I will have you beaten up by one of our boyfriends"

"I want to throw acid in your face, so no one will ever want to look at you"

The insults yelled out include,

Kill all the AIDS BASTARDS.

You are an AIDS BASTARD.

AIDS face.

You are stating to look like on of those pot bellied AIDS Bastards.

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I am disgusted with this COUNTRY

 Since the first HIV non-disclosure prosecution in 1989, there have been over 120 prosecutions.  A high pro- 

portion of accused has either pleaded guilty to, or been convicted at trial, of serious criminal offences, often resulting in harsh sentences and sex offender registration. In the majority of convictions, there was NO TRANSMISSION of HIV to the complainant.

The law states that you only have disclouse your STATUS if you are having HIGH RISK SEX. This includes vaginal or anal unprotected sex, only.

Many people ask what is the crime the TRANSMISSION of HIV or is it just touching someone that is positive. In Canada if you are HIV positive its a crime to be touched by another person without telling first you are HIV positive. I guess the HIV population needs to have a scarlet letter tattooed onto their faces.

I love my country.....its just been a few hard years.....hard years looking for answers, have blame heaped on my shoulders....not looking for any people to say..thats terrible you ok...i just want .......i will get back to you on that thought..


stand tall and forward...:)

A Lie, to Yourself

I don't have pity for people,

I don't have sympathy for people,

I just look don't my nose at you spineless, weak people.

You already hate yourself,

I do not.

You already want to be dead and forgotten.

For you and everyone,

Around u can forget. All the mistakes that you have made

Today or yesterday, your entire lives.

I don't regret my decisions.

I understood, why I did

The things in my life,

Never will I lie, why; I have done something to myself, in this life.

Lie, to yourself,

That lie won't ever die,

You will carry it for the rest of your life,

Nothing is worst than a lie.

That lies at your side, in your own bed, every night,

One you uttered to yourself and no one else.

It will eat away,

At your mind

Your own thoughts of yourself,

Your ability,

To see clearly,

Day after day it will be harder to carry

Its weight.

You will be buried under, a lie

Only to yourself, by yourself, to no one else

The lie,

Could have pushed you to newer heights,

You just had to think,

Why

Am I saying this,

Lie

Understand why,

You deceive yourself

You won't have to lie to yourself

And say,

I don't know why I did that,

I don't, know I just did that,

Again

Push yourself and answer the question,

Why, you did what you did.

To yourself, no one else.

Deep down inside, it is there

Not hidden, just not realized

We all know why we do what we do

Don't hate yourself,

For misunderstanding yourself,

By hiding behind your walls

There is always enough time to learn,

And understand

Yourself.

And learn not to lie

Lie to me all you want,

I pity you, who lie only to

Yourself.

Thank You all for viewing and continuing to check out my Blog

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Why I Beleive the Police won't help in this Harrassment and Spying of Personal Life

All in point form, I am sick and tired or going over this in my head.

When arrested in 2008, one of the arresting female officers after I was in the back seat handcuffed. Stuck her head in the passenger seat window of the front of the car and looked at me and stated.

"We taggled the FAGGIT"

I was in the police car and the two officers gavwe me false names, Officer Montgomery and Officer Coffee.
I was than began to be read my rights, I was told I could have three lawyers, I said I don't understand what you are talking about and they just laughed and stopped talking.

At 51 Division, after I told them I was HIV Positive, after they asked if I had any health Conditions I was placerd ina drunk tank cell with and upside down AIDS ribbon drawen on thwe wall just below the camera in the corner of the cell.

Months after I went to jail, went to trail, pleaded guilty for public mischeif. I was called by 51 Division and threatened with a warrent for my arrest if I did not come down there immediadiatly. After I got there an Officer Chewlou, told me I had never been to 51 division, never towest end detentioon center or to trail. I was lying about the whole thing and I was going to be arrested onthe spot and taken into custody. I told him the officers names in the police car and her stated there are no officwers at 51 division with that name.

They harrass as badly as these woman do to me.

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