I have Always looked Forward, now .....

I use to go to sleep with a smile on my face and wake up with a

smile on my face. Some people hated that I now see, and they washed 

that smile completely off.

They came to help me they say, All Lies,

I face jealousy and envy as my enemies in Toronto,

What puts a smile on their faces, my misery boredom and unhappiness.

What a goal in life and they are so proud they helped me become a better person 

TODAY

I 

HAVE

HATE

 as my bedfellow

 Thanks for coming 

To SaVE

me

from myself and everything that was myself created,

This Morning

For a while now I feel like I fell and blackout from hitting my head on something (most likely a brick wall). I woke up and looked around and thought it looks like Toronto, but there is something askew, Its not right, it looks like the same place I was before I blacked out but its not.
It feels like I live in a Parallel Universe right now, these are not my people, I need to get home some how"

 

 

 The day is well on its way.....I need something..???? done the way I need to have it done, the steps to done, resolve my day with something solid, something mature, some sense not followed by, "are you fucking kidding me?"

 

 

 

 

 

 

Children of No God

Our Love existed before we came to this place under God.

So its with us for a reason , never asked to be taken, offering freely

Now I must give part of myself, lesser a being missing a part of me,

For his image to be a whole person. (my love cast down from heaven to his image, to give to another they meet, I give a piece of me to whomever, its meaningless)

I need to understand myself to know why I take love from myself, and give it another,

now i am lesser,

To love yourself is the first step towards understanding,

now I reason that if i give my love away,

created as love created as an understanding of me,

I'm no longer an understanding being with my love given blindly to his image.

Not to another willingly and having love placed in me

one whole being, under love.

again

God wants understanding,

he lacks love for himself, or he would not insist that we gave his image our hearts warm.

Love does not exist, in his image.

why does he not love himself.

Is this why he exists on the edge of all thought.

Of what exists,

that is why he is banished from the center of all places , in our space

and that void is to large for him to cross back

To understanding, he is part of one

he needs to love himself, or that journey will be to vast, in our space we exist,

for him to survive,

he will be lost out there, in that void if he tries to cross without love inside

with understanding, himself why he loves himself, not another, admiring and fawning over

the highest mountain him..

THROugh space AND TIME TRAVELED we RESIDE AT WHAT WE WERE TOLD WAS PARADISE

we find him

STANDING SHOULDER TO SHOULDER TO his WILL AND KNOWLEDGE and image

 

faith created, themselves to be the highest mountain, 

true understanding of all they are,

even the side denied,  existed

forced to see the worst they can be and that all good resides there,

 hiding

how to create balance, in themselves,

how dark you can be,

 in a world to kill

but good enough to rise up from blackness,

 crippled unable to escape themselves,

till honest, of all they are in the world,

create a Paradise and place them

all knowledge and will at that time,

to see who you are,

when given everything.

Than taken away.

AND HE STATED AND ACHIEVED THIS IN A PLACE ISOLATED FOR HIM AND ONE OTHER,

WE WERE TOLD THEY WERE BANISHED TO A PLACE isolated,

time enough to understand who they are, the two of them placed in Eden.

time to create a world filled with  beauty, love and luxury

have it taken a away,

time to understand hate,

created for yourself and all others

time to rebuild higher themselves,

  understanding and honest,

 love thy self through sight given and used to create balance between the good and the veils of themselves

. Enlightened.

WE are in a place dark, still

 we are

LACKING ALL BEAUTY AND IT is as BARREN LIKE THE TWO when sent out for lies to a place as empty as themselves

two told us,

What is this place, it is filled with so many, now.

SEPARATED BY EVIL,

  him from lies,

Lies are the same sin everywhere out there.

that answer you gave, when you took my hand lying that you cared and loved me.

And understood those words of faith that you used to justify the hate for another

When you hate another, you hate yourself directly,

when you  spit in the face of another, you are spitting in your own face and everyone else you know personally and love.

you slap yourself in the face, when you slap another,

we are all one under God,

every time you attack another you attack and weaken yourself,

when  you hate, you spit and slap God himself in the face,

we are all GOD in his image here. you are God , your neighbor is God, so what you do to yourself or another you are doing to those in the heavens and below.
  My face hurts from your hate today, still stinging from yesterday when you blacked out in rage and fell on your face.
stopping hurting me, I am a vengeful  being 
if pushed far enough.  
hat point approaches each day I suffer my children directly

your hate for yourself

Will take you to the place,when you see the others out there for the first time,

sight given without asking,

granted by the now devils blue,

our gift back to you,

for your gift of lies,

you gave to me, all others and yourself

willing,

saying you love and understand the knowledge and the will placed in you to will yourselves into existence in this world of dirt.

 

Forgive I sin.

Forgive me,

i sinned

Don't forget me.

Never for my sin

Forgiveness for I sinned,

Not granted unto me, banished.

To The edge of nothingness,

to the edge of all thought, that exists

all in one space,

I Pray to a higher entity than myself, to show me the reason I sin,

directly upon myself to all i said I was,

to all that would listen.

Myself built on something, called a lie,

that willed me into existence,

my ideas of myself, my words said out load for all to see, and those words are what has brought me to my knees, beneath bleeding,

I hurt only because of my misunderstanding of myself,

my words now , weak,

 by myself not standing behind what is my existence,

standing with dirt under foot.

my thoughts of me,filled with lies .,

denied everything, that was true,

to them all looking at me, thought the truth,

in the eye of everyone, was my own, lie to myself.

not understanding

my words, created me, knowledge and willed myself into existence as we all do,

Bright stars, burning,

but light that is me, blinded to what these words that made me, truly mean,

Blue

Sincerely, Blue Devil

I Don't talk about this much anymore.

I don't talk about this much anymore, but the other day it happened again. I got another death threat, the reason I am speaking about it is it was a new way someone envisioned my death by their own hands.

" I want to string you up the way your friend Denny did when he killed himself. Then fuck you with a knife"

believers , a link

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Myself this Morning

Photos of the floor of Streetcars and Buses

The last little while I have been noticing some images in odd places. So I have started to photograph the images. These come from the floor of streetcars and buses, the water stain from riders shoes, spilled coffee etc.

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